Insurance, The Plauge upon Humanty

The last few days have been interesting. Well that is not the correct phrase, but it is the only one that small children can hear. I have been getting calls for Kevin to contact our insurance company for a cost saving program, health insurance. I returned the call and informed them that Kevin had passed away almost 8 weeks ago. I was thanked and just then I decided that I would ask about the status of my new insurance cards. This is when I was informed that I had no insurance. It would appear that CONEXIS had not informed UHC of the changes, simply canceled my insurance. I have a suspicion that I was reported as the one who died, not Kevin. After several calls to both organizations I was told that it would be 24 48 hours before it was fixed. I had a dental appointment at 1 and this was 11. I informed CONEXIS that if it was not fixed by Monday I was contacting my attorney. Arlene will eat them alive if I have to involve he in this.
That set the tone for the entire day. I had to drive in the rain to and from the dentist. The traffic was atroshous. I missed one of my exits. I did get signed up for some classes, and found out that my transcripts had been destroyed, why no one at the school could tell me. That took 3 hours, but I got the classes I wanted at the times I wanted so that was all good in the end. I finally made it home about 5:30 and fed the cast, them myself. The laundry had to be done so I could pack for today. I did get about an hour on the bike and to bed before 10:30.
I am determined to forge ahead and make this mess of my life work out, somehow. The weather is not helping, The rain and gloom is almost overpowering. I feel as if I am being washed away along with the debris of my life into the dark, brick lined sewer, ultimately swept into a void so dark and powerful that escape is not passable. The thought of Kevin and how he conquered his daemons to live the life he wanted is all that keeps me going sometimes. I am not going to disappoint him by giving up or giving in like some little lost boy. Tomorrow is Halloween, maybe the ghosts of my past and future will be able to meet and let me know what to do next. I know that Kevin is always looking out for me in one way or another.