Made it through Sunday

I not only made it through, I actually had a good day. Kevin was on my mind all of the time, but not in a sad way. The BBQ was fun. Dale, C.C., Rich, Heather, and all 4 girls, Denny, Deloris Teresa, Charlie, and Dave were all there. Mattie rubbed my neck and head for a long time. She almost put me to sleep! After I drooped Dave off at home and went to the gym to work out, and take a shower. Never worked out, sat in whirlpool, and sauna. Actually ran into someone and started to talk, he lost his partner in February. It was nice to talk with someone who understand what I am going through. Maybe I will check in to a support group. Well on the way home stooped at Wittie's. Watched news, wrote in my journal (have to get a new one, filled this last one up), and went to bed. I really was missing Kevin, but not in a bleak way. Talking to someone who went through this and came out on the other side in one peace reallyy helped. It is strange how loving Max has been. Saturday night when I was really bad he stayed right by me and kept snuggling me. He normally runs away when I am like that. I believe Kevin was there with me encouraging Max to give me some affection that Kevin could not. Well thats what I think anyway.