Last night while on the bike and watching a bad SYFY movie Max started to do cute kitty rolls. This is not unusual except he would stop and reach up with his front paws like someone was just on the other side of the cabinet. I did not pay much attention until I thought someone was standing there for a micro second. I was not scared or even startled. I had a feeling of calm, peacefulness, and safety cover me. Max continued and I asked him who was there, he meowed and reached out to the emptiness with his front paws. This is how he acts when e wants someone to pick him up. His actions were not odd except he was not directing them at me. Max does not reach into empty space, never has. During ll of this I kept remembering how Kevin would say he loved me bore bed, or when he was leaving for work. I am still feeling the calming effects of what ever it was I think Kevin was here. I am grateful for the visit. I am feeling so much better. Strange that something that is probably a product of my over active imagination could effect me so profoundly.
Make no mistake the depression is still alive and well, yet I feel that I am not so alone any longer.
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Hey Kenny! Just wanted you to know that Jeff and still think about you everyday - check and read your blog each day - that's really a good way to let folks know how you are doing. I know that you'll miss Kevin, as many do, for a long time but it's great to read about your progress through this. Don't forget...you have a place to stay here in Pensacola if you ever want to come visit! Keep your chin up! Hugs, Rose
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