End of Spring Break

The happy hour I hosted last evening was great! I had a great time talking and socialising with everyone. I actually felt like life had some semblance of normality. I am cleaning and repairing the walls in the laundry closet. I will paint in there tomorrow, in preparation for the new washer and dryer on Monday. Moved the old set to Rich and Heathers this morning, uneventful except for the cut over my eye form the washer not wanting to get into dad's truck. I am tired but need a night out, so gonna rest a little then go out for a while.
The girls are doing great and were lavished with attention last night. Snuggy ate it up. They have brought a lot of happiness into my life over the past few months. I am finding that they are far more resilient than Spot and Max were. I am not sure if it is because they are younger, or just different cats. I say cats now because they are hardly kittens any longer. They seem to adjust to changes in the schedule easily, which is nice.
I have begun to feel more comfortable with other people lately, I even look forward to interacting with others instead of forcing myself to do it. Most aspects of my life are calm and reaching a normality, the grief books call it the new normal. Things in my family can always offer some drama. Having so many in the family leaves this option always open. But this is all part of life, as we all learn eventually. My mind wonders to thoughts of Kevin and I am no longer brought to tears by this, he is still firmly in my mind and always there with me. Lately I no longer think of living our life without him but rather living my life after him. This is probably a good thing, or it could be the prelude to a psychotic break! This as with everything in life will be known in time.
I sometimes feel a little sad when thinking about all that is to come, and that Kevin will not be here to share it with me. Rarely now do I talk to him about my day and what is happening or about to. I know now that he is at peace and I will no longer feel his presence around me. This is sad to me but at the same time it gives me hope that he has found a comfort and peace that he so deserves. I only hope that I can do the same in time. For the present, I just find happiness as it is offered and be thankful that I am allowed it.