Insurance ARGGGGGG

I am still trying to get the insurance fixed! I gave CONEXIS until tomorrow to get it fixed or I am calling the attorney. This is turning into a blame game between the to companies and I am tired of it. I have been industrious, managed to get the house cleaned, and the rugs back down. I went to Schnucks after getting my hair do done. Unlike my normal after going to get groceries I fixed dinner. I am so tired tonight. Can barley hold my eyes open.
Going to look at some condos tomorrow, after Dad's doctor visit. Hope to find something that is just what I want. Like that will ever happen. I am realistic about things at least. Have to make a list of must haves and would like vs. can not abide, could learn to live with. I have been so busy that Kevin has not been on the forefront of my thoughts. This has not been a bad thing at all. I am finding that being alone is not so bad all of the time. I always have the ability to call anyone and share. I am not really that kind. I would just as soon write it out in my journal or on some electronic medium. This way I can be more controlled and not terrify people, so much. HAHA.
Really I am doing better and it has not been so terrible dealing with the insurance stuff. I have not went into a cussing fit, refused to listen to the other side, or hung up. Kevin would be amazed at how well I am doing with the pratfalls of life so far. When I do get ready to have an historical crying jag I do it after I hang up. Nothing has been broken or thrown or cats beaten at all. This is a major step for me. I normally do that with or without Kevin. That was always his cue to step in and take over the situation that was too much for me. Well I don't have Kevin anymore so I have to just deal with it and move on.
I am starting to get the arrangements for Kevin's BD party together. It will be the day after his actual birthday, at our home. I want to compile some stories about Kevin to keep and pass on to the little ones who will never truly know him. This is making me very sad so new subject.
I hope that his grave marker is in place on Thursday. With all of the rain they have been unable to place it. I did drive over to the grave site last week and found where it will be. I am not sure if the cremains have been placed yet. At least he will rest next to his Grandma Hoffmann. That is the only reason he wanted to be buried at all. Well that and the fact that I might get mad and put him in the litter box. HAHA.
Kenny