I am starting to feel that I will make it through the next few days after all. I was actually able to go through some of Kevin's things to pack for the move, and instead of crying and spiraling into a deeper depression, I found myself smiling before I knew it the memories actually made me happy. I have begun to recall things and feel glad that I had so many years with Kevin. Many do not ever know the happiness that he brought to my life. That is truly sad. When I put it into that perspective things don't seem so bleak. I am amazed how not having the cats is either not set in or is for the best. I know that I was in no position to take care of them properly any longer.
I am going to Jasper for the next couple of days. Spending time with the kids always makes me feel better. I am going to celebrate Kevin's life on Saturday, and I refuse to have any tears from myself. Kevin wanted things to go on after he died and they will. In reality until today I have not been too sure that I could go on without him. But the sneaking smile changed things drastically. Well time for bed have a 5am wake up! At my age I need all the sleep I can get.
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