Today was an exercise in self control. It started off with the power being out. I was suppose to be in class at 8am and the power did not come on until 8:15. The garage does not have a way of opening the door other than with the automatic door opener. I did finally make it to class but at the very end! It was the basic PE so not much was missed. I went by the apa and looked at 2 of the cutest little black kittens. They are sisters and only 3 months old. I am really torn about this. i really just want one, but they are sooooo cute together. I am having reservations about adopting even one of them. I am not sure that I am ready to take care of anything other than myself. On the flip side I may be better by concentrating on caring for something else that needs me again. I am lonely in the condo. When I come home the place is so lifeless. The house at least had memories tied to it of the best times of my life.
I have reconnected with Rick, a fried from high school. He is my age and we have a lot of things in common. Nothing beyond friendship will happen there. He wants to get into a long term relationship, and I am as far from that as one could be. He also has a son who is 18, and in high school. I am really not up to dealing with a teenager. I have also reconnected with some other high school friends. The circle of life continues upon itself. I feel as lonely and distant from everything as I did in my teen years. I have not the youth and confidence to go through the those trials and tribulations again. Oh well it could be worse, I could be pregnant.
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