Rconciling to life

I have had one of the best days that I have had in a very long time. My insecurities have been greatly lessened. A friend of Kevin's who visited him in the extended care facility let me know that I was the love of Kevin's life. Kevin actually told him this! I wish he could have told me directly, but that was not Kevin's way. He never let a day go by without telling me he loved me. I guess that we both took for granted that the other knew how we felt. Remembering my past has not been easy and yet I can see that Kevin was better at showing how much he loved me than actually saying the words. I wonder if Kevin was trying to make his passing easier on me by making me angry at him. 'Cause let's face it I draw strength from my anger. It allowed me to keep going no matter what. That just shows how well Kevin really knew me. He was always trying to protect me, untill the end. He handled his life and it's end with strength and grace. He very rarely broke down in front of me. He tried to protect me from the inevitable. That in itself is the ultimate expression of love.